It was another tough day.  How many living things do we need to loose before the pain and anguish will stop?

We have tough time with plans. We lost 7 cats in Bastrop.  We lost 2 dogs in Bastrop.  We lost one dog here. We have lost 4 cats here.  We have lost many people over the years and I am not sure how much more we can take!

I worry about Susan, but it is really starting to take its toll on me also. I am finding it more difficult to deal with as the other stresses of the new house, work and additional events take place.  I know Susan has started worrying about me as she has made comments recently.    That has been on my mind also.

What would happen if something happened to ME?  Lots of eggs in one basket at this time.  I really need to get instructions down on paper of how things may continue.  I need to get all the financial papers in an easy to follow guide.  This needs to show where money comes from and where it goes to.   Also I need to document what needs to be done to pay off the loans and if there will be any income at that point.   It all does depend on when things happen.

O boy,  what a mess I need to clean up.  i also need to ditch the stress and realize most things are out of my control.  Life happens and we are just interacting bystanders that make decisions that change the directions of our own lives.  Each person must make their own decisions and live by the outcome of those decisions.   The decision can be as simple as getting up each day early or taking medication daily or exercising or eating the correct diet for themselves.  Nevertheless we are all responsible for our own decisions in life no matter how big, small, right, wrong or whatever the being made is.