The guilt is back. I am finding it difficult to not feel guilty for what we are accomplishing in life. I know lifeis not fair and have some hard times in the past. Now as things are starting to look up and the finances are coming together I am starting to feel guilty again. I know we all have made decisions in our life and things have not turned out as everyone hopes, but why do I have to feel guilty? It is not like I have done anything to anyone that has set them back in life. I believe I have tried to help people over the years and have been shit on by most of them. I have had little help, although I have been given a few breaks along the way. Life is tough! Decision are difficult! Mistakes are made! You have to dig DEEP sometimes just to hang in there and not throw in the towel. One you give up, you have been beaten! It is VERY difficult to bounce back, but it can be done! The right path starts from within. You can not move forward while holding on to the past. Free yourself by concentrating on tomorrow, planning for the future while trying to make it through today!

We met with the Realtor and went through 5 houses.
They were like the mishicot home we had. Some a little better and some a lot worse.
It pains me to see what 70k will get you here and what we can only get in Wisconsin when listing the houses. We know the market is high and people just don't seem to understand.
It is kind of like food at restaurants. Here you can expect to pay more for non fast food than in Wisconsin. It is that cost of living thing people talk about.
Luckily there are still places to live, unfortunately just ntr the same place everyone else wants to live.

Today is a day of celebration just as it is every month. Why you may ask. It is the day the employer puts money in my bank account to compensate me for the previous month of work that I performed.
Yes it is payday. Not to be taken too lightly as it only comes around as times a year. Ohhh that sounds terrible even if it is true.