This in not referencing people looking up at an airplane or anything like that.
It is refererencing things in general with me.
I realized that about two years ago something happened that impacted me and I did not realize how much and to what extent.
The event was Trueman’s death. Sure it bothered me, but it impacted me at a level I did not notice.
OK, first I did not turn into a slob, but I did change a bunch of habits. One was the filing of the bills that I talked about before. Other things are the lack of organization overall. Schedules, lists and organization in that manner. I have been slowly getting back in the hang of it and thingsare getting better.
Other happenings are coming to a close also which is now helping mentally. RIF is over, rental has been closed on, probate is being finalized, finances are falling into place and I just stated I have started pulling my head out of my ass.
I have actual perspective back; what a relief.
All I have left is to get a renter in the Manitowoc rental, get the Wisconsin farm put on the market, install the heat pump at the Texas farm, do the close of probate, restructure the finances and accept being happy is alright.